Teenage Dream

Ayt! as soon as i finished my modfin4 exam, I walked out from LS building feeling young, wild and most of all, freeee! exams are finally over and vacation officially begins. Ended my term2 by attending a mass at PGP chapel. it felt like i was in solitude again, away from stress given by MOD. well though I am not that certain that I passed my subjects, pretty sure that I did the best that I could, and all is in His hands now. :)

Yesss, the next day, my block from DLSU had this fontana outing at pampanga. Guess what, i just asked permission hours before the trip! cause my mom won’t allow me cause I’m sick at that time and the only way to get me through this whole asking permission thingy is for my dad to be convinced. So, I sent a very very long and persuasive message for my dad and he replied “okay, kulit mo eh”. Screamed at my loudest, I showed the message to my mom, telling her like “in your face!”. HAHAHA KIDDING! however, it was really sad cause my two very best girl friends, ana raymundo and valerie encarnacion, ahhaha! valeriee niceeee, werent able to come with us. I really missed all the fun stuff we do, mostly the crazy ones :)) due to their quali exams. but the outing was worth ditching for! hahaha! cause they passed! really proud of em! :)) the outing was really fun! we had night swimming, ihaw from jiou :), bonding with blockmates, BP! and most of all, for the first time, i have learned to love sisig because of jiou’s home made sisig. <3 loooveit! though it was kinda “bitin”, the expenses paid were worth paying for! 

Well, it seemed that I was always out of home because of the numerous invites from christmas parties and reunions. Starting with..

 THE CSA RAPTORS! oh how I love them. I would pray for them and always include them in my prayers that they’ll be stronger physically and spiritually. Indeed! my raptors family is getting bigger! and Mommy dee is getting older too! hehehe! Old members have graduated, new members and more are joining ( I think I am not familiar with almost half of the team!), but the love still remains. <3 love them to the bits!

Of course, how can I forget AUGUSTINE? :) we’ve been together for four years, for the rest of our high school life! No doubt that we have share the closest ties among the other sections during high school. We spent our christmas reunion at Nuvali, Sta Rosa, had dinner at Gerry’s grill (they have the best sisig! <3) and then headed towards Halim’s place to hang out, drink. etc. (PS, i did not drink! i dont drink, ew). HAHA! even remembered Halim’s “HOT JUICY TEACHER” at his hard disk. :)) dayyyumm! :)

aaand therree goes another gathering together with my cousins at splash island! :) i was really really really conscious of my skin getting darker! well though I’m dark already, I’m afraid I might get darker! and so i used my Beach hut sunblock recommended by my very special friend ana raymundo :) well usually I use sunblock with 40 50 blah blah SPF. but what the fuuuudge! this one’s got SPF 100! hahhaha!! i rushed to the cashier, no regrets, no doubts, of buying it! hahahah! how obsessed of me :))) Going back at my cousins outing topic, well we all had fun! I missed playing with the slides from splash island! From what I remember, my last visit was when I was little, like 5 years old? or 7? So I didn’t really enjoy back at that time those gigantic slides that I now enjoyed much! We played volleyball then got this very small wound that I hope wouldn’t bear visible scars :( Never thought I would love splash island this much!:))) Note: we went to splash island twice! one was with my cousins and the other one was with the employees of our grocery stores, like a company outing. see you reaaal soon splash island :))

Unfortunately, I’ve got no picture of our family reunion with my mother’s side. It was held at Marikina  where I got to see, not meet really, hahhaha! my other cousins. cause i was shy! you know me! :)) Vicky, CJ, Joey and me was also requested by my Lola Mining to present a number. We were surprised because we were not ready! And so in just 10 minutes, we prepared a cheerleading number on the spot! what the heck is that! hahahaha praparing a routine within just minutes is not that easy. But we had no choice. :) we just did some tumblings, straddle jumps and a teamdance we got from our previous ncc routines. :) quite good though :) 

Well to be honest, I did not get to enjoy my christmas break. Having a childish thinking, probably because I really missed opening gifts together with my cousins. And I used to have many many many presents that I promise not to open until christmas eve! I used not to fall asleep because I just kept waiting due to extreme excitement of opening the gifts until 12:00 midnight comes. BUT NOW! I just fell asleep and then I woke up, and then ching! its 12:00! wow, that was fast! hahahahaha. IS THIS WHAT I REALLY GET FROM TURNING TO EIGHTEEN? REALLY? hahhaha. probably i missed being a child having fun every christmas… :( on the bright side, my family were complete this christmas and altogether, we had our noche buena (hmm, makes me hungry btw, hahaha!). My cooked my favorite roasted chicken, which we often called as turbo chicken. hahaha. And having thoughts that there’s no hope that AJ would go online at this time, I was near to falling asleep. Then I heard this CLINGK! from my facebook and there goes my AJ Cobarrubias greeting me a merry christmas! we had some few talks and chats and then got to sleep. I would often tell him my problems and he would comfort me, as most people do. hahaha! but he has a different approach, i dont know how to describe it. sometimes it even gets to a point when I cry without him knowing hahaha! :) well that made my night and somehow created a smile on my face :) 

MERRRY CHRISTMAS! :))) 

Trying to rebuild yourself after a downfall is really hard and painful but once you’re done with it, it would turn you into a better person that you couldn’t ever imagine. Just learn to accept the things that life may bring and surely you’ll find joy in every way.

This was one message sent to me by my friend, Jiou, whom i call JiouDes. hahaha. sent to me last december 27, 2010, 8:54 pm. Can’t believe it was still saved in my phone. These were the words he used when I was really into great depression (woah haha) with this guy (lets name him dork) and all I could do to ease the pain was to cry. Jiou was the first person I would turn into and he would tell me to cry it all out to release all the hatred. It turned out that I did, pretty well, realized how wonderful life can be after moving on, with all my family and especially my precious friends enriching my life :) 

Weeeeell, our termbreak just started! just last saturday, after immediately ending our MODFIN4 report (which officially is the end of our term1 and officially the start of our very short termbreak), walking towards my condo, I saw my friends who were just waiting for a taxi cab to arrive going to Mall of Asia. But I was really really, not feeling well. Plus! I was short in terms of money. But then after enthroning me as the “ditcher queen”, I just had to give what they want. Besides, its our last day. All of us will be going home at our respective provinces. We’ll surely be missing each other. 

Thea’s been one of my girlfriends for almost a year. One experience I could really treasure with her is the night when I stayed overnight at her dorm when her ate “bai”, her dormate, is gone for I think a vacation. I really didn’t like staying at my own condo. Believe my, I feel very awkward in every movement I make. I cant even study there cause I dont have my own study table. One way I could only study is to squat at the floor and using the sofa as my table (can you imagine how hard it was to study). Going back to thea, she was one of them who forced me to take a ride with them into the taxi. She even had this statement after our trip “kung wala ka wala ako mauutangan”! hahaha i laughed. She borrowed money just because she was desperate to buy this book and most esp, TO EAT =)) Sad to say, she needed to leave Manila the following day going to her hometown at Mindanao, (i dont really know particularly where), but one thing for sure, I’ll miss her. =))

Chester was already at Mall of Asia at that time so he wasn’t one of those who forced me. He was busy grooming himself at david’s. I call Louie as my ‘son’, haha! probably because he was younger than me? :) One memrable experience I got from him is when we bought this really massive “balot” of calif maki’s during university week just because we were craving for it! :) It was truly expensive but it was incredibly worth it! and one thing, he’s been always my source of toothsome and relatively divine chocolates. <3 He would just not stop making me fat! :) His condo seriously is like heaven full of chocolates :)

Alenn here is the friendliest guy any person can get. Or maybe only me? haha. Weve been together at all time at all groups even since birth! we’ve been on the same gradechool, highschool, star section, cheerleading squads, (or just one squad? haha) and until college he followed me which was the worst fact ever (KIDDING!) Whenever he wants something, he wouldn’t just stop, bragging for it! Like how he forced me to go with them at MOA and times when he seriously wanna wake me up from my every harmonious sleep just to accompany him to study at HOLLYS! :) He even borrowed 1k from me during the movie and hasnt paid yet! :) But he is the type of guy who can receive unlimited mockery and ridicule from me, and thats how precious our friendship is :) He just lives across our hometown, so no problem if you wanna come over to his house and make fun of him whenever you feel like all the worldly problems are thrown over you =)) kidddeeng.

 

Obviously, it’s evident in the picture that he’s so damn crazy at all things. :) we usually call him our bangag boy just because he could barely process ideas or even jokes at his mind, but they say that no one could ever beat my “slowness” in catching up their jokes. Seriously! sometimes im having a really hard time to comprehend with their jokes cause I really really dont get it. :| Jiou here would often go mad and “tampo” at me cause I would always ditch him at all things, but he’s so wrong. he would just not realize how much depth I put on the significance of our friendship :| CHEESY MUCH! :) joke. Jiou’s maybe one of the guys whom I find so “mataray”, but with just one text away, he’ll reveal to you how approachable he could be. But he just wont stop fighting and defending aj over me whenever aj and me fights. haha! 

 and here goes my special one.»> :))

yep, he may be choosing DOTA, HON, or other crazy things over me. But one thing’s for sure, that even though he wins or loses at those addicting games, he’ll never lose me and I’ll always be here at all times :)) gaaaaaaah why so cheeezy. :) cant believe we’ve been together for almost a year and a quarter, geeez how time flies so fast. it seems like yesterday when he was just teasing me during our FWDANCE classes about this kevin that they thought I liked just because he was a gentle, kind-looking young man. :) He was my personal assistant during that day :) he brought my heavy yellow bag the whole time. then he started laying in the issue “alalay mo lang naman ako”. I wasnt the one who told you to bring my bag?! hahaha but I think it was really sweet of him. I’ve been always sweet at him, but in my perspective it seems like sometimes he wouldnt just appreciate the little things I do for him. (wrist </3) joke! :) hehe. enough said, but I feel secured and happy whenever I’m with him and I’m serious :)

That very day cost me for almost 1k and beyond :) cause without me doing it on purpose, I made my mom and dad angry over me :(( I just wanted to give what my friends want for the last time before we separate apart from each other and go on our respective provinces.  The time we spent together was worth it! We had the coolest combination of double movie! We watched this very sinister and creepy Final Destination 5. Every bloody scene would just not stop lingering on my mind! :( and then we had this very romantic movie “Crazy Stupid Love”. While watching it I had a picturesque imagination on my mind of an ideal love story that I would tell my children in the future. how wonderful =)))) it made me cry! knowing that someday I would also be making one precious love story of mine. :) 

ADIOS

“I googled your account on twitter”, a friend of mine who got seriously mad after reading one of my twitter post referring to HIM. =)) Then realized how publicly accessible my account could be. And so I tried to google my name and there popped out the numerous social networking sites I’ve signed up with a few years ago. There goes my formspring, my facebook, PEX where my name was mentioned, my latest - Twitter and then my blogger. 

Have you ever felt that feeling when you wanted to unfold to someone what youre currently feeling, probably anger, hatred, joy or even your “kilig” moments, but unfortunately all of ‘em are busy doing their own stuff. (gosh am I going too emo?) Perhaps, blogs can substitute the attention and presence of those friends i’m referring to. So I thought that updating my blogs could be a good start. Besides, even if I write a thousand words, probably no one would react or even like comment. (omg im going like emo right now). 

What can I say? I’m really an open-minded and verbose person. If there’s an opportunity to share, I will. I don’t have the guts to keep what I’m feeling only for myself. Back from my grade school days I used to have my personal diary each year and I treasured it so much. There you can read my most humiliating moments and my innermost secrets that only my mind can transcribe. But then, after transferring to our new home here at citiland subdivision, I just realized I lost it! I cried for it! damn. :| I felt like I lost my childhood memories. No, not only my memories, but even my most intimate secrets and worst, probably someone’s already laughing over it! I really gotta find it. But I lost hope.. :( I felt like I lost my soul. haha! But I just pray that God will look over that “person” who took my childhood :(